I’m not sure if I’m going to continue posting up outfit photos. I’m just not so convinced about doing it anymore. Cold feet, you say, just after basically 2 weeks of OOTDs? Not exactly. Here are my reasons:
1) As of late, my explosion of outfit posts has just taken too much time out of my life. Yes, really, I have a life!! And unfortunately, that will soon consist of at least 34.5 hours of uni per week (only to increase, I’m sure). In my few meagre free hours, I’m not planning to blog. That’s kinda low on my priorities. Instead, I’m going to choose going to parties, shopping, spending time with friends, studying and yes, watching Gossip Girl.
2) All I can say is that the actual quality of my blog has decreased since I started posting outfit posts. I don’t like compromise. I don’t want to be a purely superficial blogger with only outfit posts to occupy the minds of others. Sure, some amazing bloggers can balance this out, but for me, I can’t. I either blog outfits, or things on my mind. I prefer the latter.
3) Internet. At college, the internet is an absolute load of rubbish. Put your hand up, all fellow college-dwellers who can identify with me! Completely frustrating, and out of my hands. Don’t even know if the internet regulations have changed so that I can’t even post anything. If that day comes, it will be frustrating, and I might murder someone
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4) Linked to Reason 1, is that daily blogging has become a chore. Sure, I’m no longer a sporadic blogger and have gained a larger readership, but the premise of this blog is that I write for myself and no one else. I aim to maintain this. My blog is kind of like an electronic journal (albeit fashion-focussed) but more public (and hence my honesty will be shrouded/disguised). I enjoy doing this. Everything I write will probably have an underlying message (unless I’m just drooling over the latest YSL shoes) but no, no one except me will truly know what I’m talking about. My blog, now probably around 2.5 to 3 years old has been at my side when I have undergone some (truly) life changing decisions and moments. I have literally sat at the keyboard, in tears, and blogged. This is no exaggeration. Some were moments where my whole body, even to my bones, have ached with sadness. I might not have shouted this out to the entire blogosphere, but it’s very clear to me. And that is all that matters.
In regards to my own style, don’t worry (haha I’m sure no one is) I’ll still be around. My heart is instilled in the fashion world; it’s part of who I am. I just won’t so publically show it. I still plan on taking photos of myself (takes almost zero time) though. Why? Because I want a record of my style-journey, to see how it develops and to be able to look back, see past outfits and be happy. It’s satisfying.
Perhaps, when I have more time, I’ll be able to share this. I know that all bloggers wish to impact the world with their own little ideas – yes that includes me. I know that it’s nice to think that people read your blog and become inspired, or whatever. But in reality, and maybe I’m being too cynical, but my withdrawal won’t really affect anyone. If anyone does sigh at my actions (again, I express my doubt), they’ll get over it quick-smart, move-on, and quickly discover another bright little blogger. Trust me, just reading over VF, I am shocked at how many new blogs have sprung up! I am no Jane Aldridge (though I sure wish I was in her shoes…literally
) and quite frankly, I don’t even have the time to be her!
So no, I’m not going to be on hiatus (unless college internet forces me into this cramped, horrible position), I will just blog as I always have, just unlike the last two weeks. Yes, I am a little bit sad, but when you weight up the pros and cons, the truth is, that maintaining a daily blogging routine is too tedious and not really that worth it. I don’t look for a career on my blog.
And let me leave with you with a last reason for my blogging changes. Outfits posts take time (blahblah) and I don’t want my whole life to be focussed on fashion. I need to be grounded. I don’t need to think out every single little detail of my outfit, because there is more to life. Today, I suddenly realised this. I think I’ve been obsessing over my outfits too much, as of late, when I used to be able to pull of a lovely outfit in a matter of minutes. I know I still can and I don’t need to obsess. I don’t need to think: Will my outfit look awesome on my blog today? (Not that I think my outfits are.) Instead, in future, I will wear what I want to wear. Perhaps not 120% awe-inspiring, but still always nice (because that’s just how I dress).
This morning, a song popped into my head, and I think it is no coincidence that that happened. It’s based on Matt 16:26 and it’s something I need to think about. This is the truth, and I want to live it out.
What good is it to gain the whole world, but lose your soul?
Sorry. Sometimes you just need to prioritise. Sure, maybe in the holidays when I have loads of time, I’ll do the usual OOTD, but for now, it’s just not going to happen. I think we all need to focus on the important things in life and treasure them while you can.
*** Btw, a vintage Cartier female’s watch has recently come into my possession (okay…yesterday). I am flipping excited!!! I’ve never been a watch-person, but I’m pretty sure that this has converted me!!!!! Ok, I might have time to post piccys of this later on hehe!! xxx


































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